It's been a long time since we were close friends, but I've never stopped caring about you & always wonder how you are. It's nice when we share brief messages, but I realize now, they're empty words. They're lies. They're not you, you are not you. I hate the you, you have become. I cry for your children, I cry for your parents, I cry for your brother, I cry for everyone who cries along with me, for you. In this New Year I say goodbye to trying to understand. I say goodbye to the tears. I'll stop wondering if 'today' will be the day your body joins your soul & I'll shed one final tear at your funeral. Goodbye old friend, wherever you are, I hope you find a light in your darkness. I hope you find strength in your weakness. I hope you choose to start living. I love you, wherever you are. Goodbye.