Thursday, June 21, 2012

my very own whaw, whaw moment

The morning started with the husband whining that he didn't have any clean white tshirts.  AND?  what would you like me to do?  twitch my nose, spin four times and wish a white shirt to materialize?  Quit Whining! Shame on me!  Worst Wife Evah!  Sorry, I'm four days behind in chores because I damn near broke my back get'n the yard, kid, food & dog ready for your Father's Day BBQ & could barely walk for two days, never mind lug laundry up and down two flights of stairs. Here's a thought, yesterday when you realized you had one clean white shirt left you should have strolled your ass downstairs and tossed in a load of whites, they're always all sorted and ready to rock.  ??  BUT, it's likely you didn't even notice you had one left, because you don't usually need to notice these things.. Because, I'm the captain of this ship & it's usually running in tip top shape.  it's all my fault for, not being the worst wife evah, but being the BEST wife evah. HA. 
Then the kid whined at first blink because it was too cold in the room with the AC. Here's an idea.  Last night when I mentioned you put on pj's you could have agreed with me instead of creating a naked uproar OR  Get up & walk out the bedroom door because it's about 97 and a half degrees out there, sweetheart.  and she did and she still whined and demanded a pair of panties and a long sleeve tshirt with a rainbow on it!   Done!   Wear it, see if I give a hoot.  in fact, wear it and how about you sweat the binky out of your mouth that you refuse to relinquish, even though you're 3 going on 6 & tell everyone you're still two..unless it suits your needs. A 3 year old can have gak and lolipops & swim in the big pool....or so I've been told.  By 9 A.M. she was shed'n the long sleeves ask'n for a bathing suit & hiding the binky away to keep it safe from the threat of disposal.
A morning wouldn't be a morning if the dog didn't try to snatch Lyla's breakfast or follow me around at the heels always step'n on the back of my Croc for my flop.  always trip'n me up...or is it keep'n me on my toes?! Today, it was so damn hot and every time I sat down he came over, as if he wanted to cuddle.  seriously?  It's damn HOT, Oscar!  Do you really need to come pant your steam'n summer breathe on me?!  for real, dog...go find some shade.  Here, take a bowl of ice cubes, a kong full of frozen peanut butter & scram.
& why am I talking about all this?   Eh, I just wanted to vent.  I did manage to survive the day...happily.  But some mornings it's like back to back slaps in the face.

Thanks for hanging in and reading me out.... if you made it this far.

Wednesday, June 20, 2012

Slack Attack

It's been so long since I've posted.
My notebook is full of half thought out ideas & then, I was...
....abducted by Aliens.
No, not really.  But, man...that would be a GREAT blog post!
Truth is...
I'm just an unreliable blogger....on occasion. 
I found myself get'n caught up  
Daddy's Birthday.
Daddy's Day. 
I read the 3 Fifty Shades. 
& followed that up with the 3 Hunger Games. 
& before you know it, it's the 20th of June!
It was a scorcher here in the burg, Ma.  
We played in the water, licked popsicles, drank cold beverages, snacked on ice.  kept cool.  

I'll be back before you know it!

Thursday, June 7, 2012

learn the yield

Oscar looked at me with a set of , C'mon, just trust me on this one, eyes...& finally,  I throw my arms up, "Fine, we'll go to the door and you'll see you have this all wrong."  Sure as it's rained for far too many days in a row there was a Chinese take-out menu slipped through the door handle.  & don't you know once I said it out loud he shot me the, told ya so, eyes.  Whoever pinned the menu there had ninja skills, I didn't see or hear a thing other than the dog alarm. I did the "hush, no barking, Oscar...there's nobody there. you're hearing things," As I scouted out of the nearest window.  I shushed and shooed him away, tried anyway.  He literally followed me everywhere... whining.  Laughably, it's the same way his BFF displays insistence.  I thought..I'll show him! Walked him to the door to prove there was nothing there...............hmmm.  I was so sure of myself... that didn't work out how I'd imagined.  He would have loved it had I allowed him to scratch n sniff the chicken fingerprinted menu. 
Oscar's lesson to me today: Never challenge a dog in a super sonic hearing smelling show down.

I'd prefer if, Lyla, would learn a lesson on finding rest before the worst napping hours of dinner time tick tock on the clock.  We've attempted to "rest" for longer than the last hour.  She defiantly sits straight up, stiff...for minutes at a time, quietly sassing, she doesn't need rest, then scoots up and darts away.   Repeat. There's frustration nestled between my grinding teeth.  Breathe.  In....Out.  Inhale....Exhale.  Let her have this one, it's not worth the enamel.   Oscar lays in the window, resting.  I sit & stare out the window trying to block out the non stop chatter, the harder I try the louder it becomes.  "Mama, Mama, Mama, Watch This!"  She Zigs, She Zags. She'll Zonk out...eventually. 

I'm 0 for 2 today. least the rain stopped.  before it started again. 

Wednesday, June 6, 2012

you're a stranger...STILL.

I forgot to mention it last week on day one of this month, Happy June!  If Mother Nature would start delivering sunshine my head would (may) be in a much better place. Although, that's debatable. All this rain is draining.  I've been circling around and around worrying about an old friend, Again...who frankly, in the sense of the word hasn't been a "friend" in so long it really shouldn't be bothering me the way it is.  It's dredged up my own feelings of  self loathing, resentment, helplessness, anger, & worry that I'd effectively put to rest, but still have life and have come alive once again because I'm trying to understand How and Why my old friend hasn't already saved her own life & stopped jeopardizing the relationships she has with her children. All the reasons I used to self medicate are now staring me in the face again & while I have claimed victory with my own demons, there are scars that run deep & there will always be tears to accompany them. I've come to accept I will always feel sadness when I remember and relive the pain & what is all this for?  I can't make the difference in her life, only she can do that now.  So here I am, not only angry with her, but angry with myself for again side tracking my sanity to try and understand her lack of it.  Back in January, I declared for the New Year I'd wash my hands of the worry for her, I have to take care of me & can't save her from herself.  I had to skim back through my blogs to remind myself.    & here it is again...6 months later ~

you're a stranger
It's been a long time since we were close friends, but I've never stopped caring about you & always wonder how you are.  It's nice when we share brief messages, but I realize now, they're empty words.  They're lies. They're not you, you are not you.  I hate the you, you have become.  I cry for your children, I cry for your parents, I cry for your brother, I cry for everyone who cries along with me, for you.  In this New Year I say goodbye to trying to understand.  I say goodbye to the tears.  I'll stop wondering if 'today' will be the day your body joins your soul & I'll shed one final tear at your funeral.  Goodbye old friend, wherever you are, I hope you find a light in your darkness. I hope you find strength in your weakness.  I hope you choose to start living.  I love you, wherever you are.  Goodbye.

Friday, June 1, 2012

Foody Friday: lick lip licking BBQ sauce

I'm all about just about any variety of Sweet Baby Ray's BBQ sauce, but then there are days where there's nothing quite like cook'n up a batch of your own...or on this particular day...two of my own.  It's as simple as measuring a few basic ingredients, deciding on a couple surprise ingredients, stirring, boiling, simmering & tasting. 
I'd had nearly a full jar of apricot preserves left over from a strawberry tart I glazed for Lyla's birthday party.  Added a spicy kick and lip licking spicy apricot bbq was born!

nearly a cup of preserves
nearly a cup of plain tomato sauce
couple tablespoons red wine vinegar
fresh garlic, one clove minced
dime size of cumin
almost two tablespoons of chili powder
dash of salt
half a dash of cayenne pepper

Brought it to a boil, simmered it until it thickened.  cooled it. basted with it.  Loved It!

The other is a recipe my husband introduced to me & has become a house favorite.

mince a small onion and a couple garlic cloves saute it in a wee bit of olive oil until tender
add ketchup 2/3 cup
a fourth cup of brown sugar
3 tbsp molasses
1 tbsp red wine vinegar
half a cup of coffee
1 tbsp ground ginger
wee bit salt

bring it to a boil, simmer several minutes until thickened and use it or store it.

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