Tuesday, January 29, 2013

lightening the load v8

Two weeks & a couple days into the eight week weight loss challenge.  Weighed myself yesterday & as long as my eyes were not deceiving me, I've lost 8lbs.   Nice!   I'm almost halfway back to where I was before I lost control and gained half of the weight I'd lost last year back.  I'm 8lbs closer to winning this weight loss challenge.  I'm doing it!  I'm surviving on 1400 calories or less a day and nobody has been injured.  I didn't even have to hide the sharp objects!    yet.  I haven't had pasta in over Two Weeks!  Sad face.  I haven't had a potato in over Two Weeks!  Sad Face.  I haven't had more than a couple tablespoons of rice in over Two Weeks!  Sad Face. I haven't had more than one slice of bread or half a pita pocket a day in over Two Weeks!  Sad Face.  I haven't had an egg yolk in over Two Weeks!  WTF.   ha.  All those sad faces are part of the reason I'm sitting her on an ass that weighs eight pounds less and that makes me Smile. big.   I was talking about it last night before bed with the husband, he asked where I thought I'd lost the pounds, from which part of my body.  This morning while I showered I was wondering about it and looked down and saw my feet.  clearly.  I don't know if I could do this before, I don't usually look down at my feet. BUT maybe my belly shrunk or my boobs shrunk. It's more likely that the breasts took another slide outward and under the pits, but I definitely saw my feet.  clearly.  Whether this was the case over two weeks ago, I have not a clue. 

41 Days to Go until the Money weigh in.
One day at a time.
One glimpse at the feet a day from here on out.

Damn, I'd love a juicy bacon cheeseburger on an extra large bun slathered with mayo and ketchup.
In my dreams.

Thursday, January 24, 2013

lightening the load v7

You know when it's so cold your nipples feel like they'd shatter if you grazed them?  Yeah..it's That cold today. 

You know when it's so cold you can feel the posts of your earrings freezing your earlobes into little blocks of ice from the inside out?  Yeah, it's That cold today.

You know when it's so cold your nose hairs freeze to the walls of your nostrils with that first frigid air inhale?  Yeah, it's That cold today.

You know when it's so cold you just want to cuddle up with hot cocoa and steaming comfort food?
Yeah, It Won't be That kind of cold day for me today.  Knock on wood.

Day 11 of my 8 week weight loss challenge.  I was feeling on top of my game until reports of first week losses hit my ears.  A drop nearing double digits, another not far behind.  Wha, What?  Seriously? in ONE week? If slow and steady doesn't win this challenge I may be in the losers bracket.  I'm tempted to put my glasses on, march upstairs and see with my eyes the exact number of pounds I've lost, but I don't want to get my mind all twisted up in the number if it's not what I want it to read.  I need to be happy for them and their loss and feel comfortable with my progress.  I need to stay out of my head...especially, alone.  I know where I think I need to be to win this challenge with the greatest percentage of weight loss, I've since adjusted my first guestimate and will shoot for 12% rather than 10% & just plug away at it for another 45 days.  One day at a time.  & while I may be happy for all those other women losing, Look Out there's no Cook Out over here only a freight train coming atchya!  Chuggah, Chuggah,  Choo!  Chew!

Winnah, Winnah, Chicken Dinnah!   ha.  I wish.  Fried chicken, mashed potatoes and gravy would be great cold day steaming food.  *wink*  Fried chicken and waffles, I'd love that for dinnah!   Although, the orange simmered pork chops with mango relish (360 calories a serving) I'm cooking for dinner will be enjoyable.   on a bed of wilted spinach.   eh,  the spinach part sucks when a starch would hit the 'cold' spot.   Sacrifice.

I'm wearing a knit hat and scarf eating a fried egg white on a quarter of toasted pita.  I'm warm and it's only 60 calories.  Baby, it's cold outside, but not that comfort food kind of cold.  Perseverance.

Wednesday, January 23, 2013


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Monday, January 21, 2013

lightening the load v6

It's been a week!  I survived a week of 1400 calories a day...well, & that one day that it crept up to 2200.  eeek. over all it was a great first week, now seven more to go before I win this weight loss challenge.   I have lost weight, but my eyes aren't keen enough to know exactly how much.  ha.  I don't have a digital scale and my eyes, without my glasses, can't decipher how many little lines I've decreased on my old school dial scale. Sure, I could put on my glasses and schlep myself upstairs, but knowing I've lost is good enough for now.
I feel good.  I don't feel bloated like I did.  I've done a bit of cardio exercise to ease myself into a routine, not much.  This week I'll incorporate more time on the elliptical and may start with a little resistance and light weight work.  Less weight more reps will propel me to win this weight loss challenge!  

Happy Monday!  My day will be sprinkled with fun, a Monday full of the fun of laundry sorting, washing, drying, folding, putting away.  What a great Day!  We'll throw in a trip to the gym for gymnastics, then back home for more of that laundering fun.  We'll have to peel ourselves away from all our fun with the washer and dryer mid-afternoon for even bigger fun & take a trip to the dentist.  OH yeah, I told you, this day has Fun written all over it!  Lyla told me I should cancel her appointment because she doesn't want to go & doesn't Need to because she knows how to brush her teeth already....apparently, she's onto my sarcastic 'this will be fun' tone.  Buck up, Kid.. the Fun never ends!

You know what's great fun?  shoveling up frozen dog poop in the backyard...I can't believe the husband leaves all this fun for me, he's so thoughtful.   Just this morning he said, "It would be nice if you could go to work for me today."  & leave all this fun behind.  No F*n Way, off you go, This Fun is All Mine! 

Friday, January 18, 2013

lightening the load v5

Despite my desire to lose a day, today is Day 5, not yesterday like my hungry for excessive coupled with empty calorie deprived brain had hoped.

Ahhhh, deep breath.  inhale.  exhale.  Day Five of my 8 week weight lost challenge, again. Still so early in the game..the beginning of the quest to find a thinner healthier me beneath my emotionally gained armor of fat, veiled with winning cash.
The husband called earlier..he wants, Pizza Hut, for supper.  Pizza Hut?  I can't remember the last time I had Pizza Hut & it's a good thing because I'm guessing it's 100 calories just to smell a slice.  Lick a slice.. 300.    No Pizza Hut for me, I'm on a mission & I won't detour to the Hut...only Five days in.  I cannot promise my drive to stay the course won't be derailed..on day six.
I'll be creating my own bite on a local pizza shops "Big Mac" pizza.  A bit of calorie rebellion compared to much of my choices in the last several days, but made at home where I can control the calorie content.  Hamburg, pizza dough, cheese, onion, pickle, lettuce, thousand island.  I don't have the hamburg & no desire to hit the store. I'm faced with a need to improvise. I have a cup of taco beef in a container in the fridge  leftover from the husbands taco night Wednesday.  I figure if I rinse it to wash some of the taco seasoning and warm it, it won't be too bad of an option.  Ha-Ha.  Ghett-Oh! 
Today will prove to be a difficult day.  It's Friday.  While many people are throwing their arms up in celebration, I'm calculating the degree of restraint I'll need to practice during pig out days of the week, for at least the last few months it's been customary to indulge, proceed without caution, eat like it's your last meal on the weekends. It's a great time until the pants you bought in August have buttons literally tearing away from the fabric because you're squeezing ten pounds of ricotta cheese into a single size ravioli...with that imagine burnt in my mind it wasn't a difficult choice to go healthy and light with leftovers at the lunch hour.   I made it work & honestly, I was less than thrilled when I figured out what I had to work with, in the end it was pretty darn tasty.  My lentil rice burger on a pita and mango slices rang in for 226 calories. I used an egg white to help form my "burger."
This is the kind of eating that will catapult me to the winners bracket of this weight loss challenge.    I'm practicing the bowing of my head, so I have perfect form for the ceremony when I'm adorned with the winners crown.   There is a crown, no?!   Oh, okay, maybe a crown would be too over the top, I'll practice my "show me the money" winning dance & if the end I don't win at least I've knocked calories down along the way pretending.

My use what you have in the fridge & make it healthy lunch.

Thursday, January 17, 2013

Wednesday, January 16, 2013

lightening the load v3

Day 3
up early to throw together sausage, peppers, onions and potatoes for a luncheon at the husbands office.  the smell had my nose hairs dancing while I poured his coffee & bundled up to head out to clear away some falling snow.  while I was out there I was thinking about why it is I do the morning routine?  do I enjoy getting up early and preparing my mans lunch & coffee because it makes me happy to make him happy or because I need to do it to tighten some loose screw in my head, if I do it then I know the creamer will be in the "right" place in the fridge when I open it, or the cabinet doors won't be left open, or a dirty knife won't be left on the counter instead of in it's place in the sink. waking up to a scene like that would rattle my morning...as silly as that sounds.
the snow was light. I'd planned to just clear off the stairs and breathe in some fresh snowy air, but it was so light I decided not to wait until it stops later to use the snow blower, but to instead shovel his side of the driveway... it drives me nutso when there are packed snow tire tracks that ice up...as silly as it sounds.
it was so quiet out there, just me and my ground scraping shovel.   Smile.
ran inside to pull the pan of food out of the oven and pack it up to go & back out I went..after throwing together breakfast for Lyla..why not finish my side of the driveway, who cares if I have to do it all over again when the snow stops dropping.  after coming in I began with my wednesday routine, I work tonight & if I don't iron my clothes first thing in the morning it bothers me, it nags my brain until it's done...as silly as it sounds.  I have so many of these little things that I keep order, I suppose I do it to help balance the things I can't control, for instance the color wonder mess free disney princess pack with glitter I just opened for Lyla.  the markers are mess free...the glitter, not so much.  it shall now be a sparkly day & given the amount of time I've already spent in my head it will probably, also be a day I spend venturing into my mind asking Why I do the things I do, The Way I do them hoping to uncover something new within my quirks.

I didn't get a chance to upload and post some photos last night of a pretty tasty meal.
Turkey Salisbury Steaks with a White Bean Mash   ...sure mashed potatoes would have knocked this up a few notches, but would have increased the calories & I'm trying to win a weight loss challenge, remember?!

I made a baked sweet potato for the husband because I knew he'd snub the white bean mash.  The onion soup mix, as you can imagine, is high in sodium.  I think the next time I make the turkey burgers I'd mince or chop a real onion.  It's definitely a meal we'll have again.
The recipes won a Down-To-Earth Classics Category in 2009 for BHG.com

I also made a chick pea dip to snack on with crackers or pita chips the rest of the week. Delicious! I'm not sure how long I've had the recipe or what issue it was in, but it's from a Martha Stewart Living Magazine.

I couldn't find the recipe through the online search engine to post a link directly to it, so here it goes....

2 Cans (15 ounces each) unsalted chickpeas, drained and rinsed.
(reserve 1/3 cup liquid)
2 Tablespoons EVOO
  Coarse Salt and Freshly Ground Pepper
1/2 Cup fresh basil, coarsely chopped
8 Radishes, chopped
1 Small garlic clove, finely grated
1/4 Cup fresh lemon juice (from 2 or 3 lemons)

Lightly mash chickpeas, oil 1 teaspoon salt, and 3/4 teaspoon pepper in a bowl until creamy but still chunky.  Stir in basil, radishes, garlic and lemon juice.  Stir in reserved chickpea liquid, 1 tablespoon at a time, until dip holds together.  Refrigerate for at least 30 minutes.

Tuesday, January 15, 2013

lightening the load v2

I can win this weight loss challenge.

I can win this weight loss challenge.

I'm not hungry.

I am a little hungry.  Ha!  

It's Day 2, I expected to feel a bit empty...after all, any day last week when I felt the slightest twinge of boredom or stress I reached for comfort in the form of food.  It's satisfying.  Until you can't button your pants without taking a deep breath...then, it's emotional discomfort.   Typical, my emotional eating turns back and slaps me in the face.   
and just like that....I don't have time to finish what was on my mind because it's impossible to complete a thought in my head & then type it with a child pulling at my arm asking me for this, then that..then this again.  & it would be far too much to ask the husband to pay less attention to what He's doing, that would be ludicrous! Crazy Talk! Call the white coats & commit this woman! 

I bought myself another two minutes with the promise to read an extra book tonight before bed time, which has quickly come and will be gone if I don't hurry....

Check out the list of ingredients I used in some yummy food today....

peanut butter
green pepper
butternut squash
crumbled blue cheese
garlic italian
dried cranberries
ground turkey
chicken broth
tomato paste
white beans
chic peas


I've off to bed & believe it or not, I'm not hungry after two back to back 1400 calorie days.

Monday, January 14, 2013

lightening the load v1

My incentive to lose weight Should be the fact that I initially felt a pang of embarrassment with the thought of  hopping on a scale and sharing the number with other people and sure maybe that moment of flush will be a powerful factor in sticking with this drive to not only lose the weight, but lose the highest percentage of weight to win some Money.  At the end of the day...Cash is King & damn it, I want that Ca$h     and I'm exhausted with being a fat ass.

Day One.  3 hours since weigh in.   I could have vomited in my mouth when I saw the numbers flash on the scale.  Holy Pounds!  Who knew morning coffee would weigh me down so much?!  HA!
Oh, by the way...I'm F*n Starving!   It's all in my head.

It's all in my head.

It's all in my head.

6 hours after weigh in.

50 ounces of water later...
coffee with milk later...
scrambled egg white later...
slice of toast with peanut butter and banana later...
nacho chips and salsa snack later...
couple cups of roasted eggplant and butternut squash later...

nobody has been hurt.


I haven't thought much about my plan, other than making myself accountable for every morsel I put in my mouth & chew.  & swallow.   If I was into spitting I'd have an entirely different set of issues to manage, both sides of this road can be gnarly.  Accountability and...I have to get moving, drag this fat ass around. move it. groove it.  I have videos & an elliptical machine, but today I chose housework, I can't scare myself away from my "plan" that I don't have too soon in this quest for a narrower ass.  4 loads of laundry from the bedrooms to the basement, 16 flights..that'll give you jelly legs...and that is only the laundry runs. Which...wtf, I don't know how I fell so far behind with the laundry?  I realize my memory is that of a 40 year old & my screws are loosening, but the 3 baskets of folded laundry prove I haven't been a total slack.  ....hmmm. maybe I have too many baskets, that's what it is.  7 baskets to hold clean/dirty laundry for a family of three allows me to lay back & sets the husband up for failure.. one of the pet peeves that makes my eyes & neck twitch is his inability to put his laundry away before I'm called out for nagging him about it.  On occasion I throw my arms up and do it myself...Ah-ha! so in the big picture, why wouldn't he wait it out with the off chance I do it for him.  I've thrown a wrench & snagged my own expectation.
.....and nine & a half hours after weigh in... I'm Stahvin' ... ha.  I had dinner, chicken thigh, squash & eggplant and a splotch of lentil rice.  I ate enough, I think...waiting out 20 minutes before I make a decision on a possible after dinner snack & with any luck my brain will receive the message from my belly that I'm full. 

everyone is still alive and well....
100 ounces of water later.

Day 1
55 to go.   Are you ready? 
NO, better yet.... Am I Ready?


I'm off to lick the pages of a foodie magazine.